City of Cyn

A peephole into my life

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My doctor said I subconsciously punish myself. I deprive myself of happiness because I feel I don’t deserve it from my past actions/decisions that’s I’ve made. Therefore, I eliminate all of the possibilities to experience happiness in my future. I’m now paying for it with anxiety, panic attacks & insomnia. It’s frustrating. I feel like nothing is wrong, but I was told it’s a way of protecting myself by not knowing what triggers these attacks.

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